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Do You Believe Me Now?


“She sits down and stares into the distance, and it takes all night.  And I know I could break her concentration, But it don’t feel right.”   –Her Diamonds 💎 

I have moments of wonderful clarity.

Where I am totally still-  physically,

but my mind knows everything around me.

Down to the smallest speck.

~~~~

Sometimes I try so hard

To remember my words when my [brain]

holds them so }tight{

That I say the wrong thing just to make you      know it’ll come to me <<
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maybe you will help me fill in the wrong to make it right.

~~~~

"How do you feel today?”<<
hat sounds good to you? Anything?”

“I can barely hear you, what did you say?”

“I already told you. Do you really not remember?”

~~~~

This is hard for you.

You want to help, but don’t know where to begin.

Sometimes this feels like it’s all or nothing.

Sometimes

I

need

you.

Other times I pretend that I don’t.

~~~~

Do you miss her -the other me?

Was she easier to read?

Was she never home or around?

Did she never require your assistance?

Could her laugh be heard in echoes far away?

Could she lift her eyes to yours?

Do you pray for her now

to just come back home?

~~~~~~~~~~~<
ould you believe that she misses you too?

Things are so different now.

You are.

She is.

No one knew.  How could they?

~~<<

I have moments of wonderful clarity.

Where I am totally still-   physically,

but my mind knows everything around me.

Down to the smallest speck

~~~~

“…oh what the he11” she said, “I just can’t win for losing,” And she lays back down. Man there’s so many times I don’t know what I’m doing, like I don’t know now.” -Her Diamonds 💎 

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